Finding An Explanation

An explanation to remember

Tone it down, make it simple, speak clearly, be direct, some of the many suggestions made over the years to reflect upon how I function as a person. Believe me, I had tried everything I could possibly think of, I would go through the steps, the logic, the assessment, long form writings, no matter what I came up with it was seen as but an enigma. I was the spectacle, the unknowable and fantastical beyond comprehension.

That was how things stayed most of my life, lucky enough to have some people willing to meet me how I was whether they understood or not, they found it amusing, harmless or fun. I’m so glad that regardless of what they thought of me that they were still willing to take me seriously, to talk, and challenge me. There’s a reason I was willing to rip my heart out for my classmates in a live performance and rip my heart out again via livestream!

Communication is key,

and I have functioned outside the loop of expected process for so long that it was beyond my wisdom to translate and connect my universe to other peoples.

Now here I stand, able to say I have an explanation, one that neatly bridges the cosmos and makes place for everything in its own little universe. I am a campy theatrical maximalist, overcompensating in my communication with excessive iteration of a sentiment, gesture, idea or phrase to the point it is lost or punches you the face. It took some years but on large scale show attempt two, I finally started to form some way to explain myself to others. Only, it took a twenty minute walk through and was designed to be dynamic with coincidence built in to reward chance discovery through the cluttered displays.

What took twenty minutes to catch a glimpse, can now be collected in a bundle of a near seven minutes. You Can Understand, Yucan, You Can can’t you?, may be less in-depth to personal experience, however it is by far a better bridge child full of references.

You Can Understand, Yucan, You Can can’t you?

If you talk about an object in a novel you are supposed to make that object hold importance and be called back upon in some way later is what most consider fine practice. If you walk in socks, and you talk about goofy socks, then you walk by a magazine of that sock then there must be something to behold. Collapsing time from the live walkthrough, to the drone documentation after the live filming and the mess that ensued a pocket outside of possible is formed.

The walking segment is my favourite visual sequence in the video, the words most precious are the ink answer to found purpose, hearing to get your goofy socks on since there’s more adventure is the most exciting sound. Forgoing sentence structure(forgive me), it’s joyful to say I can offer some definitive answers:

Story, displays, gestures, rather indirect messages offer more scope to what they provide. There is some value in directness yes, however it can be limiting so, to maximize the ideas, value or energy offered I am drawn to the theatrics of over the top gestures.

The more over the top, the more the idea and action is symbolic of a sentiment, not a singular answer more so a value of repeated importance. If you want it to be heard, or understood you have to be prepared to repeat it and explain it multiple times in multiple ways.

Everything is a question, and we get a choice, I cannot cease to think for I fail to see the logic in many expectations. Thinking in multiplicity, I will see all the exceptions to the rule and a general sentiment of a rule, to the point of sometimes even forgetting the rule in the first place.

I’ve made my choice time and again, I’ve chosen to make, to create and believe in possibilities.

Hidden Tidbits

Ever playful with a hint of goofy I enjoyed hiding the direction for the video with the rough thumbnail plot points as we journeyed along the Rue Goldberg machine gauntlet. Timing everything digitally to transition and switch displays was already frustrating. Adding to that was the limited cameras I could send live video from, meaning I had to move the two cameras with me as I went along. The frustrations of camera angles to change outfits also meant switching between front and back cameras and a battle to position them in a timely manner. Not without mistakes, I learned the hard way that the USB port cable is for computer connection hence the strange audio the first two live runs(used the camera adaptor cables oops). I’m so glad to have finally seen it all come together and share that explanation even if I totally butchered Peter Fischli and David Weiss’s names(I’m sorry)! What a great adventure!

Thank you